Not gone... just busy

Ohai guys!

I'm so sorry if you have been a reader and I haven't been updating this space a lot! I've just been really busy with school. Projects due, upcoming mid term tests due and lots of networking and briefing sessions to attend. I'm so busy I barely have enough time to sleep.

I just felt like updating this with a short post. I've been feeling so pent up and stressed, to the extent I feel like crying every single day.

Sometimes I think to myself, "Am I being too hard on myself? Have I been too caught up with school work and I'm totally missing out on all the fun in Uni life?"
I really don't know. I mean, yes, I don't have much opportunity to be involved in such activities and experience, such as hall life cause I'm studying in SIM but I'm sure there are more things that I could have done to have my fair share of fun. When I first entered SIM, my mind was set on doing extremely well for school so I could apply for transfer to any of the local universities. And ever since then, I never looked back. All I did from my first to my last semester of my 3 year course in SIM, all I was involved in was projects, tests and exams. I never made effort to make friends or take part in any external events beyond the scope of school work.

Now, I feel like I achieved so much... but so little at the same time. I have relatively pleasing results that I worked my ass off for, but I really missed out so much. Looking at all my friends being so involved in their own commitments and getting gratification from them makes me so jealous. So much bonding that forged new relationships and experience that they would never forget.

I never had the courage or motivation strong enough to pursue my passion or things that I wanna try so bad. I really don't want to grow old having regrets.